Monday, October 13, 2008

So Long, Farewell, Auf Wiedersehen - For Now...

OK, So here’s the deal. For the last week and a half I have been planning on writing about some of the exciting “firsts” that have been happening with Timothy. It started with his first steps on 10/2 (finally! though he still strongly prefers crawling), his first hour left with “babysitters” (Lowell’s parents – we went to Taco Bell and OSH. Woohoo!) and our first post-placement visit with our social worker (where Timothy decided to show off and walk farther than he had ever walked before.) Since then the list has gotten even longer… we’ve experienced his first trip to the fair, first trip to the Dr., first cold days… and some other things I can’t remember. I’ve also thought about some profound things regarding adoption, my spiritual walk right now, life in general and who knows what else that I wanted to blog about. BUT have you gotten to read about any of these things????? Have I actually written about any of these things (before now)????? Unfortunately the answer is NO. Today I even thought of some ridiculous ways to tell you what I’m about to tell you: The BLOG is taking another vacation! I thought about writing a letter to the blog (“It’s not you, it’s me. And yes, there is someone else and his name is Timothy.”) but, well, that was just weird. And I KNOW that I had another silly idea, but I can’t even remember what it was – even though it was being thought about less than 6 hours ago. (Another reason I haven’t been blogging… I think of things when I’m not at the computer and then when I’m at the computer can’t remember what they were.) It’s bugging me that I keep thinking of things I want to write about and keep not finding the time to write. K All of the extra time I used to use to blog has disappeared into the black hole called “I have 3 children now.” BUT, ever an optimist, I am determined not to abandon my beloved blog and handful of devoted readers forever. J I am hoping to be back, full of insight and stories in a few weeks. Sometime in November maybe? I was thinking of taking the month of October off, but realized today that October is already almost halfway over. (Huh???) So maybe it will be until Thanksgiving – because you know there isn’t going to be much going on after that and I always (HAHAHAHA!!!) have Mikaela’s birthday preparations, our Christmas shopping, family newsletter and baking done by Thanksgiving. (Yeah…. that’s the optimist in denial.) So December should be the perfect time to start blogging again. J Well, whatever happens, for now I need to stop being frustrated for not writing and just set it aside for a few weeks. This season is so new to me. Not only do I have another child that I’m still getting to know and learning to love, but for the first time in 2 and a half YEARS I do not have “The Adoption” to be obsessing about and procrastinating about and preparing for. It feels very strange. It’s been on my To-Do list for so long, I’m wondering now what’s going to fill the space (besides diapers and nap-resistance.) I know God is doing some new stuff in my heart and I’m looking forward to sharing it with you after I’ve had a bit more time to listen to Him (without thinking about the blog.) Feel free to comment away – they’ll still end up in my inbox. Love you all and see you soon!!!!! Love, Melissa


  1. Anonymous9:48 PM

    It will give me one less thing to check on the computer every night. I'll miss it, but certainly understand. Dad

  2. :-) I'm just sitting here smiling because I can almost hear your voice, even though I've never really heard it (except for the one song you recorded and posted:) And I want to say 'I totally understand!' But wait, I DON'T have three kids; maybe I don't understand...but I feel like I do-does that count?! Well, I want to say...GO! Live, love, experience, survive, soak it up, remember... The sad thing is you will forget a lot...that's one of those things I kind of hope to be true in heaven-can we recapture all those precious moments that we didn't have time to write down because we were too busy living it?

    Is it coming up on a year since I first wrote you? I remember first reading on your blog that you were not blogging until after the first of the year, and that was last year. Weird.

    Well, from one of your 'handful,'

  3. Anonymous7:11 AM

    Ahh yes, maturity and wisdom sometimes force us to give up some pleasures for a season. It will all be there when you find time again. We understand. Much Love!

  4. We will miss you, for sure. In answer to your question, we have been able to write letters and send packages directly to our daughter via the orphanage director as of last December. But, she has not been able to write back. We heard that she got her birthday gift we sent in June. We heard she liked it and was excited to be adopted. We're really looking forward to getting to communicate with her in person.

  5. Melissa, relax! It´s so funny cause I can totally see myself thinking of all those things you think about- the best way to say you´ll take some time off. I loved your break-up with blog, too! :) And I can totally hear you telling me what I´m telling you- namely- Relax! Give yourself permission to live and love and play :) Oh, and when you have time, there´s this great book- THE SHACK- that´s pretty awesome from what I´ve read so far about God´s love and sovereignty and decisions and the trinity and etc... so in your free time... :)

    Blessings to you, many of them.




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