Saturday, February 02, 2008

When I Need Him the Most

Well, I've been avoiding writing this because I feel like my posts have been so serious lately and I was hoping to do something more fun this weekend...  (which I probably still can, but not at the moment!)  But here's what's really going on with me right now.  I'm struggling.  I'm doubting.  I'm feeling weak.  I have one of the most exciting opportunities I've ever had coming up in a few weeks...  and I'm scared.  Our church is having a women's retreat Feb 29-Mar 2 and I'm leading/coordinating the worship for it AND speaking at the first session.   (!!!!!!!!!)
The thing is that up until 2 days ago I was so full of excitement and energy about the whole weekend that I could hardly contain myself.  I am thrilled that I get to share the first night and amazed at how God is putting things together for the whole weekend.  (Our theme is "Believing God" and I'm sharing about Believing how much God loves us.)  But the last day and half I have started to feel uncertain and I'm quite sure the enemy is stirring up my insecurities and fears and that it IS NOT FROM GOD.  I know this because God has been speaking quite clearly to me about these fears I'm having.  He even sang me a song about it.  : )  So that's what I'm going to share with you all tonight...  in case anybody out there needs some encouragement too. 
Y, Melissa

When You Need Me the Most


I've given you hope every time you needed it

Why would you doubt Me now?

I've given you strength to move the mountains

Would I take it from you now?

I've held your hand and dried your tears and wrapped you in my arms

So why would I ever leave you now

When you need Me the most?


Can you look into My eyes and see how much I love you?

That I'll never let you go?

You might not always hear Me or see Me or feel Me, but I promise

I am with you wherever you go

So wrap your arms around Me just as tight as you can

Oh why would you not trust Me now

When you need Me the most?


When you pass through the waters and through the rivers

And through the fire I will be with you

I have called you by My Name and you are mine

You are precious and honored in my sight


You're right that you're not strong enough or wise enough or good enough

That's why you need Me!

My great power is for you; if you believe, I'll give you wisdom

My Son's blood has made you holy

Be joyful and keep praying, giving thanks all the time

And don't put out my Spirit's fire

When you need Me the most


Will you believe that I love you?  Will you believe I am Almighty God?

Will you hold on to Me with all your might?  Will you trust my arms to keep you safe?


I believe that You love me.  I believe You are Almighty God.

I will hold on to You with all my might.  I will trust Your arms to keep me safe.


I believe.     I believe.

Lord I believe.     Lord I believe.



Written by Melissa Ens  2.2.08


  1. Anonymous10:44 PM

    You will do great. Know why? Because your counting on God to help you out, and not relying on your own skills. Fear and doubt have always made me pray to God for help, and He has never failed when I let Him do the work. Dad

  2. Anonymous11:05 AM

    I wish I could hear it too!

    I am home with the flu today...

    This song and blog post couldn't have come to me on a more precise day... I am in the middle of a worrisome time with my job. Basically, I don't have one after June. This is where the rubber meets the road and I can tell I am still very far from the place where I am truly certain that God loves me and will provide even for things like this.

    thanks Melissa...
    beautiful song too.

  3. Anonymous6:02 PM

    Melissa ~ You have a gift and God is giving you a place to use it. Just let Him flow through you. I know you will be a blessing to many that weekend. I'm looking forward to it too. I will keep you in my prayers for peace and confidence. Trust Him.



Thanks for sharing your thoughts and heart with me.